recently started a new full time job, and its okay—im getting paid decently considering the minimum wage in my state, i get along with the people i work with alright, though it is a bit boring and one of the most appealing things about the position im in isnt, like, available at this workplace? im a kennel assistant and the animals are the part i love the most about the job, being around them feels energizing, but the hospital doesnt do boarding. i knew this going in though so i dont hold it against anyone, im just wistful about it lol
problem is i feel so fucking drained after a workday that i dont really accomplish anything else once i get home. i like to draw, but the minute i get home all i want to do is lie down and do something brainless like scroll on my phone. this happens with every job i work and its really depressing. the exhaustion i feel is almost similar to how depression just kind of sucks the joy out of doing everything (i am Professionally Diagnosed with MDD so please dont get on my ass for the comparison ). i feel a deep sense of shame at not being able to accomplish anything once im done with work because i really want to but i just feel exhausted.
is this something that happens to other people? is there something i can do about it? i try not to work too hard, but i take pride in doing things well so its kind of difficult to “work like a cat” because i always feel like im leaving things unfinished. still, id really hate to just resign myself to going to bed unfulfilled for four (4) nights a week