(Please forgive my grammatical errors)
I graduated with my bachelors and got a job in the corporate world. I was so excited and was so ready for it. But as i have started working, I have started to realized how dumb I am. Literally everyone else are so much more smart.
So I started this job about 2 weeks ago. There were some basic trainings at first. But, now that i have entered my 3rd week, the work load has increased drastically. My boss has assigned me this 300+ pages (I am not exaggerating a bit) of report to read and understand from it. May be this is normal for new hires in the corporate world but tf am i supposed to understand that bulky doc within a week of starting my work. I have absolutely no prior knowledge of this company and its not that I don’t ask for help. But I literally have 10 questions from every single page. How many questions do I ask in a day? I have barely read 20 pages let alone understand it.
The report is filled with acronyms, graphs, mathematical functions, codes, and god knows what not. It is so advanced. I have to google stuffs after literally every single sentence. My bosses’ boss gave him some feedback and changes to be made on that report, and my boss is expecting me to help with it. By help I mean makes actual changes to the issues addressed by my bosses’s boss on graphs, codes, functions, memos, etc and make sure my boss’s boss is satisfied. I don’t have to do EVERYTHING (there are 3 other people who are all in senior positions) but I still have a lot to do.
He does keep asking me if things makes sense and when I say No, he assigns some other person from the team to help me with it in one 30 min scheduled meeting. I have to start helping in that report from next week. And I am very happy to help but there are so many new technology to learn just to complete that project. Oh btw we have less than a month to complete everything.
Ugh maybe I am just overreacting and maybe this is normal. But its seriously making me scared for what’s coming next. I was so anxious today that I literally started crying. Everyone in my team has at-least 3+ years of experience so they know what they are talking about. On the other hand I don’t know wtf i am doing.
Am I overreacting and not pushing myself enough? Any feedbacks?