Rant/question
I'm a new analyst (government job). Apparently in one of the “tougher analyst positions” that takes a very long time before you are solid.
My training is inadequate, I hardly ask questions to begin with but when I do I get told that's a dumb question or I should know that already. I've been working extremely hard and even staying in late daily to keep up with with the grind, and so far I have kept up and done well.
It was whispered to me that someone in upper management thinks I'm not talking it serious or cut out for this…
1 I have been working extremely hard and keeping up
2 how would someone in management have any info to base their opinion of me off of? I literally never had meetings with them or worked with them where they could form any type of opinion of me.
I am in touch with my direct manager but I believe we have a very good relationship and he has been supportive of me.
My trainer tells me my probation could be at risk and that I should work harder.
How should I feel or react to this? Honestly I feel betrayed and insulted by this. My blood is boiling. I feel like I've been working super hard for average pay when their are many other positions available with much lighter work loads and the same pay.
I feel disrespected because I've been giving my all, yet I'm still seen in a bad light.
I'm honestly feeling unmotivated to work or put much effort at this point.
Sorry for the rant. I have no one to talk to for this.