i am 24F and my little brother (21M) took his own life on sept. 10th. my family and i are absolutely devastated. i booked a flight home and took off 5 days bereavement leave and 7 days sick time. i am grateful to have a job with good benefits and that i was able to take the time off.
however i flew back this week and thought i’d be ready to start work the next day (starting remote to ease into it) but the grief is hitting extra hard being away from my family. my boss and i have a very small team and she is acting as if i took a 2 week vacation to mexico and i’m expected to come back full force. no one i work with has checked in on me. going thru hundreds of emails since i was gone, i realized my boss placed a lot of stuff on me to do once i return. my first day back at work yesterday, i got many many emails from her giving me projects and tasks asking for them to be completed today/tomorrow. dumping a ton on my plate my first day back. she did not ask how i was doing, all she said was “glad you’re back”
i sent a long email explaining that it was really overwhelming to come back and i’m not doing well mentally. i asked if i could ease back into it as the loss is fresh. she sent a very short response and said we can discuss on friday in our meeting. it felt extremely cold hearted. i said thank you and she sent a passive aggressive response back.
this grief is extremely complicated and i’m feeling so sad that i have no support at work . do i start looking for a new job?