I'm earning pennies. My cousin allowed me to stay at her place for free, and for that, I'm grateful. But even beyond that, when I made the calculations, I realized I cannot eat well thrice a day, pay my share of electricity, and pay for my bike's fuel expenses…all at once. Forget emergency expenses, including medicines. Even using menstrual cups and budgeting my food to the minimum doesn't seem to make this better. I'm fucking terrified.