I don't know if I'm lazy or not motivated. I don't wanna be lazy, and I don't want to procrastinate, but the big reason for the procrastination is I am not motivated at all to do what I do for my employer. Its just, I get paycheck to live every month so I'm doing it, participating in mindless corporate requirements, working monday to friday just so that I can get to Saturday and Sunday, taking every chance I get to avoid work. The money is good but I am just not happy at all. I can afford to do something else, something that is more fun, but the fear of failure and financial instability is keeping me here.
I know many will call me lazy, and it's okay, I'm just looking for company, I feel very alone at work. Personal life wise I'm alright, but work life wise, I feel completely alone.