hello, I am a 20 yr old male and have recently graduated college. I work minimum wage in public service. within the past month, I have started seeing shadows, shapes, lights that are not real etc. this along with delusions in thought have made working difficult. I am currently sick and I get sick around 4-6 times a year nowadays.
I am reluctant to tell my family about my symptoms, and I am more reluctant to get mental health help in my country (canada). I have researched and I do not want to go on anti-psychotics as I am already on antidepressants and i dislike an altered state of mind.
my question is.. should I go on unemployment? it would take upwards of a year to be diagnosed and qualify for disability in my province (ontario), and I am stuck in a cycle of trying to work hard for things that I know I will not achieve. my parents do not understand the troubles I go through. I can't tell my friends or brothers about what I am going through because everyone has a negative view towards “crazy people”.
what is my next move?