Hello fellow redditors. I wanted to make a post today so see if any of you are going through the same thing that I am with this new job I started a couple months ago.
I'm usually a really hardworking person with a great work ethic. I study really hard in school, and give a 110% with everything that I do in my life.
I started a new job a couple of months ago, and am finding that when it comes to working (specifically this AV job) I just don't care enough to do the best I can. The hours are long and kind of shitty, some coworkers are really toxic to work with, the company does not respect personal boundaries, untrained employees that lead to safety hazards (I was almost seriously injured on the job due to someone else's negligence) and a plethora of other reasons that make this job and job environment a not so great place to work in.
I'm conflicted because I want to do a great job and work hard, but I'm also a people pleaser and will give my all even when I know I shouldn't and I'll work myself into the ground for terrible pay because I need the money. Its starting to get to the point where I dont care about the quality of my work and that really bothers me as that is not my usual mindset whatsoever.
I mentioned terrible pay, but in comparison to other jobs, it's much better than working as a dock worker for a major retail store, or working in back of house in a kitchen somewhere.
Does anyone feel the same way that I do? I'm counting the day until I can graduate from school and get a job in music therapy. A job where I can hopefully help someone and feel like I'm making a difference in the world and in my community. I'm just struggling making my way to my end goal without breaking down.
Thanks for letting me share what's on my mind.