I am writing just because I can't sleep. I live in a place where the minium wage is about 730 dollars and the house price for a studio is 800 dollars.
I stopped having motivation awhile ago, we started having more work and still are payed the minium wage. I am a designer, an editor and sometimes I Do 3D. I am so tired, I cry everynight. Sometimes I don't understand at first what my boss wants. Today he called me (it's a remote job) to change something's in the work I had done (okay by me) but then asked me if everything was ok because I am not in the level I was supposed to be. All I had to do was change something… I did gladly it wasn't wrong, it was just his preference that I didn't capture at first. I feel useless… I don't know if this happens with my colleagues because noone trusts anyone, everyone just tries to screw each other.
As soon as I stopped the call I had an anxiety attack and I have been crying since then thinking that I will be fired. I can't sleep.
I just had to let this all out.