I’m often furious deep down inside about the injustices and unfairness and cruelty that is regularized in our workplace culture. But at the same time, I often have to work myself into the fucking ground just to be able to eat some cheap, unhealthy food (which contributes to me feeing tired and shitty) that I can actually afford and pay rent. By the end of the day, I’m beat. Too beat to really express the full extent of my rage about how fucked up things are and how different they need to be. And DAMN well too tired to actually do anything active about it to try to contribute to some kind of a social change.
It’s like I get home with all this anger and upset but I’m too tired to express it in any way but casual, escapist self-destruction in order to tame my mind from going off the deep end over it. Does anybody else fee that?
I try not to be ‘conspiracy theory’ish about it, but I do find that the particular economic class that benefits from us being too tired to organize/make more political changes also are the ones running us into the ground with busy work all of the time. Maybe just a coincidence, but a damn convenient one for them, and I’d say that isn’t lost on them.
Anyways, I wish I could express this better, but, I just worked a long ass day being severely understaffed doing like 3 managers jobs for them, so… I’m absolutely beat to smithereens and gonna drink some beer and go to fucking bed now.