I am at my absolute breaking point. My job has been so beyond stressful. We have all of these values about integrity, communication, blah blah blah.
My team sucks. I have 0 support. My manager just assumes I’ll learn how to do stuff I’ve never done and can’t be bothered to hop on a call with me for 5 minutes then I’m berated when I don’t get something done in time.
Tonight was the last straw. I was out for 2 days last week. One planned, the other sick. I just received a long ass email about things that didn’t get done while I was out. FYI it falls to her when I’m out. She didn’t complete the tasks and it is her fault something that is scheduled for tomorrow is getting delayed. I was told I should have completed XYZ before my “vacation”. Please lmk in what world a day off and then a sick day (when I had a legit allergic reaction and was willing to supply documentation) is a vacation.
She did not complete something I had asked her to the day before I went out. I incorrectly assumed she would do it while I was out and be able to hold down the fort with very simple tasks. Apparently it is my responsibility to get these things done while I’m out of work.
Every day I am crying at my laptop, and it is only getting worse. I am meeting with HR tmrw about a med leave and am hoping I get options and answers. I can no longer do this.
I SO badly want to quit on the spot but because of the world we live in everything is so expensive and I can’t afford to live without this job. I literally fucking hate it here. I have become beyond depressed and suicidal over everything. I have no hope. I see no way out. Whoever invented this grind for us to simply survive, kindly fuck off.