I got laid off today. I feel guilt about not being sad, upset, angry, etc… but frankly, I’m just not.
I don’t know what I’ll do next, or what the future may hold… but I’m okay with it… I’m oddly more okay with the unknown than knowing I have to open my laptop to attend meetings tomorrow.
Maybe this is just a way to vent, maybe not… maybe it reaches another human whose sitting there, staring at their work email reading that they’ve been laid off and it brings them comfort, idk.
It’s a strange feeling to be okay with being jobless… to be a “non-contributor to society”, to know that I have no plans for tomorrow.
I got back from a month of vacation time to return today to an email that said, essentially, don’t worry about coming back, you have severance!
And truly, the lack of income makes little difference to me, or it does right now anyway. Idk how I’ll feel in a months time.
I didn’t hate my job- I disliked the company, but I never disliked my job or my peers. And yet – the relief – it’s telling, and speaks to a voice I didn’t know I had within me.
Cheers to those who have been laid off and have been blessed with opportunity to not panic. And to those who have not been blessed with such emotions- you are still a valued member of society, don’t let the “system” ruin you!