About a year ago I was about to shoot myself and end it. This was mostly due to general depression, but the bigger factor was the dead end job I was working at for five years made me feel like I wasn't going anywhere in life. I was working as a manager for a restaurant for a toxic owner who only cared about themselves.
Fast-forward to now and I work in the electrical trade for a decent company. I have a 401k, PTO and other benefits, however I'm still not happy!
Everyone in the family and close friends talk about how proud they are of me & how I came such a long way! They don't understand that I don't feel like that at all and working in this trade is the same as working in a restaurant to me. I need to get out before this company locks in my apprenticeship and I'm stuck with them for four years because if I quit or go to another company I owe them money for the tuition they invested in me!
I want to be an astrophysicist! That's all I talk about anyways and that's all I really care about. I'm twenty eight and avoided college for so long because of my fear of debt and uncertainty. Now I am not uncertain just still afraid of the debt lol. I guess from what I am seeing it doesn't matter. We all die at some point and there are so many people who have unwanted debt that I might as well be part of that statistic. I might as well make an attempt to do something and be a part of a community I love vs being miserable and dreading what I do.
Does this sound crazy? I told my brother this, but he says I'm just throwing a good opportunity away if I quit this electrical company, and I'll regret it! I understand where he is coming from, but is there any point in financial security if you have to sacrifice your personal happiness?