This feels like a pretty stupid question, especially to ask here and not some mental health board, but I did a bunch of searches online and the SEO of my query is for shit and all the hits I get are for jobs in grief-related therapy work and I don't want to get dunked on any more than necessary.
I figured if anywhere is going to give this a second of consideration it'll be here. I'll probably delete this post after about 24 hours because it's deeply embarrassing but I'm not too prideful to at least ask.
I ask the headline question because even the idea of going back into the job market to look for a better job makes me feel really bad, deep in my guts, and it messes with my head. I almost get dizzy, headachy, and I can't just talk my way around it. Yesterday I had a mild bout of whatever this is when I ran across some real old emails while cleaning out my google storage, had a rush of memories, and I had to leave work to escape a feeling of dread. What the shit was that?
I've got to get out of my current job, I do not have time for this paralyzing nonsense.
It isn't as if someone blew up my car or anything. I didn't nearly die. I've had so, so many weird and bad experiences with almost getting a great job and then having it yanked out from under me at the last second, but nothing that happened to me meets the criteria of 'traumatic'.
I've had some real bad experiences, but can you be actually 'traumatized' by this process? I would roll my eyes at the suggestion but I don't know what else to call it.