Hey all. So I'm 23 and my whole life I've had terrible anxiety, and over the last couple of years, I have found it impossible to keep myself at a job for more than a month or two, sometimes even days. Every time I quit a job, I feel guilty but I also feel a huge amount of relief until I end up getting another job, which starts the anxiety up again. It's so bad, I dream about work, I count the hours before I have to go in and I literally can't enjoy anything throughout my day before I go in. When I'm actually at work, the thought of just running out the door mid shift crosses my mind so much, I feel like I'm going to puke and my stomach hurts from the anxiety. I've tried a morning job thinking that would help but it didn't. I've worked kitchens and retail, easy ass jobs and hard, fast paced jobs, and it's all the same for me. And then I also can't get over the idea of having to put up with this every day for basically the rest of my life until I've saved up enough retire. It makes me want to give up and just end it all honestly. And it makes me feel weak because I know everyone has to deal with working, so what's wrong with me? Why can't I just get over it?
I guess I'm just looking for advice, because I'm tired of being stuck in this cycle but I know I don't want to work, at least not a social job. Maybe if anyone knows any online or work from home jobs that aren't call centers? Or any other advice, I'm literally laying on my couch crying right now because I don't want to go in today.