I am on average 10 years younger than the other support staff workers at my office. In my opinion, this should be seen as an accomplishment as I have the same job and qualifications as people who’ve had a decade longer to get here.
Except no, I get treated like total fucking shit. I am treated outrageously different by management and the other support staff workers. I do not like making friends at work. I am friendly and can have pleasant small talk with people. But feel I just get totally written off my many of the staff because they “wouldn’t want to be friends with someone my age”, except I don’t want to be friends, I just want to be treated like a human being.
I haven’t been able to take any vacation (an odd day here and there) time in 10 months I asked for just a couple days off and was accused in an aggressive meeting of not being able to handle my job and life. Followed by invasive questions. (During this meeting he confirmed that this was not due to my performance?!?!)
Then a new coworkers has already taken multiple WEEKS of vacation in just a couple months. We have the same position with the same hours. Everyone was kind to her about her vacation and told her to have fun and that she’d earned it etc. This was literally painful for me to listen to.
I’d like to mention I present myself extremely well, far better than most of my coworkers. I don’t even wear makeup to work, or talk about drinking or my personal life. But still get treated like a kid.
I spent months earning trust, then made ONE mistake that didn’t even effect anything and now my supervisors are acting like I can’t be trusted with ANYTHING. They are now trying to make me feel guilty that they are doing the work I could be doing and saying how busy they are.
I don’t know. I find the contrast fucking ridiculous. I could think of a 100 more examples ex. not being given access codes to the building until I asked months later, when older new employees were given it immediately.
I just don’t understand why they would even hire me if they hate “kids” so much.
I think it’s because they think that this job is my saving grace and I would have nothing without it. No this job makes me miserable. It was one of two offers I had at the time and was lower paying. I have not gotten a raise. People interested in hiring me reach out on LinkedIn all the time and I don’t know how to make it clear to them that I have options.
You may ask why I wouldn’t just find a new job, but I have really bad anxiety and hate interviewing. I also hate disappointing people even though they treat me poorly. Any advice?