Okay, I have worked this 10-hour overnight shift since August. Supermundane has little growth, but it has the best pay in my area. For the most part, people have been friendly to me, but being the only black girl at work, I feel like I need to work ten times harder than everyone else. This has exhausted me. Despite bending over backward for everyone; driving 30 minutes to work, canceling my plans to cover somebody’s shift for Thanksgiving, renting a reliable car so I’m able to get to work during last weeks snow storm, picking up an extra hour of overtime because we’re understaffed, I still feel like everyone hyper focuses on my minuscule flaws.
I have this coworker who is making me not enjoy working there. They’re moody, and dismiss what I say, even if I report to them. And they always have an attitude towards me but then change when she’s around other coworkers. I’ve been focusing on my work and avoiding them the best I can, but because of our job, it’s hard to avoid them altogether. They act as though they do the most work and don’t get any help, which is not valid. I overheard them today taking credit for several tasks that I did. I understand that there are a-holes at every job, but I don’t think this is worth dealing with. I’m losing sleep because – well – it’s hard to sleep during the day, and I’m stressing over work. I feel like I’m wasting my time. I cried on the way home today after feeling excluded. I found out that the staff had exchanged presents and Christmas cards with one another. I’m considering quitting, but I think I’m overreacting.