Just got terminated from my Chef position for not getting along with a senior employee. This was my first “real” Chef position after spending 10+ years working Sous/Manager positions for fine dining and casual restaurants.
I just can't anymore. I'm tired of it. Being wrongfully terminated after putting myself out there and doing what I thought was a quality effort! Ugh. They literally didn't have any other reason than 56 year old crackhead James doesn't like working on shifts with me.. wtf. I seriously just let out a deep breath, laughed and walked away.
I'm a Head fucking Chef, yes, you have to wash your hands, yes, you have to clean as you go, yes, in my kitchen, I expect you to care about what you're putting out. My fucking name is attached to this. Such a waste of time and effort. After all the years of shitty experiences in kitchens, this was the worst.. I truly feel anxious about even applying for culinary jobs now.. What am I walking into? Am I going to be abused for doing my job? Am I going to be let go for holding standards? All the years of insultingly low wages with no benefits to speak of. This industry is seriously the worst of the worst. Don't let anyone you know think that working in restaurants is an OK way to make a living. Urge them to GTFO..
I was once a young man with romantic dreams of Chefhood, working for minimal $dollars$ just to gain experience. Thinking that if I somehow just worked hard enough and learned enough I would be able to make something of myself with food. Only to get fired from my first Chef job because of a fucked up all-time ex convict LOSER.
I'm so pissed off and fed up.
I have 2 kids to take care of, if you knew me you'd know I don't deserve this! Hate the world right now, feel like nobody wants anyone to succeed.