Im swedish, I work a “poor paying” job, I'm a delivery driver. Yet I still get better pay, respect from my boss, 5 weeks off, free education/hospitals etc. I get treated well and there's never issues of being treated like worse than an animal. Yet, I still wake up most days dreading to go to work. If I were in your shoes, I don't see myself wanting to ever wake up again.
So my question remains, how do you do it? Is it just that I'm so privileged that it's incomprehensible for me to accept being tolerated this way?