An honest question: How do you guys manage calling in sick, mentally?
Quick background: I do have occasional anxiety, which has been in overdrive since I started working in a very toxic environment/very small company. I caught a cold, and I normally never call in sick; this time, however, I was forced to. And I feel horrible – I thought I'd enjoy the distance to work and that horrible job, but guilt is eating away at me and literally tripling my anxiety… or maybe it isn't guilt and more… thoughts of all the work piling up (which noone will do for me until I'm back) and my boss' reaction when I'm back… judging on the general atmosphere, I'll be met with criticism, passive aggression and toxic masculinity.
Quick note; I know I have to get out of there, active search for a better place is going on, but I'd hate to quit without having sth else lined up already.
How do you guys deal with that? And how do you, if in that situation before (or even if not!), react to people/bosses basically blaming and shaming you despite having the most legitimate reason in the world to be away?
Thanks, guys!