Hello! I have been w/ my current employer for 4 years and I’m having panic attacks every day for months. The stress is unreal for the meager wages and no benefits so I am really tempted to just quit without having anything lined up or much savings. I feel like I literally cannot work here for another second or I could have a heart attack or something.
Now… I do have an interview lined up tomorrow which I have a great intuition about. I’m waffling back and forth between giving it another day or just saying “fuck it”- and force myself into a situation where I have no other choice. If I do, my stress levels could be even higher if I don’t get this one and have trouble finding others after this.
I dunno I’m just ranting and venting and if anyone has any words of advice, I’m all ears! My perception is warped I think because I’ve been in such a state of high anxiety for a prolonged period of time. I’m not thinking straight. I have a long history of ptsd and panic disorder. My counselor informed me she’s leaving in March. Just a lot going on all at once. I’ve lost 15 pounds in 2 weeks. I know it’s my job that is causing the stress.
Other pertinent info: I work in medical billing, so there are lots of open positions in my area now