I really don’t know if we are going to be striking or not?

So I’m in SoCal and discussions between our union and employers have gone to shit. We voted to authorize a strike and today is the “last” day the union and the company are meeting up before the union decides to strike. This might go down. I’ve heard different things from different sources and I have no idea what’s happening. The past couple contract negotiations haven’t gone this far……I don’t want to strike but I will