I'm writing this to help vent my emotions because anxiety is killing me after calling in for the second day in a row. My father was a hardcore worker that tried to instill a wage slave mentality into me from a young age. But, he let the stress of work push him into alcoholism so he was never my ideal when going into the working world. It seems like his ethics have burrowed a bit into my skull cause this anxiety over two call-ins is ridiculous.
I currently have over 300 hours in vacation leave and 160 hours in sick leave that I've accrued over 7 years. Most of that time was earned during my first 5 years where it was almost impossible to call out sick or get vacation time because a shitty supervisor and chronic under staffing in that department. My current department does not have this issues and they have respected my call-ins every time before. I've never gotten in trouble for using sick time but this irrational anxiety still makes me think that this is causing my coworkers problems and I'm letting them down.
Fuck this work mentality and wage slave feelings Imma go play Runescape and jerkoff all day.