Hi this is my first post on here. I (23f) work as a gate attendant at a lumber store and I thought it was going to be alright because I would be getting paid more than my old job and they said I'd be working alone for the most part so I accepted.
However two to three weeks in I realized that the customers were annoying and that I'd have to be very extroverted to truly do this job the way they want it done but I'm not like that and because I live in the Midwest everyone wants to have small talk which mainly includes but is not limited to; the weather(), if I'm staying dry or warm(yes), or if I get bored in the shack I stay in when I'm not checking people out (no). The questions are grating since the cars tend to come three or four at a time on either sides.
I used to be able to humor these middle aged men but my manager started giving me more shifts and hours giving me less time to recharge for the next shift. I've noticed that I've been getting more agitated with time but my people pleasing tendency and fear of disappointment makes it really difficult to tell my boss I want less time since he makes me feel bad about calling in or telling him I don't want the extra shifts.
If I quit I won't make the money for my bills and my sister just asked if I could visit LA with her which I already accepted. I already quit school because of all the pressure I've felt recently. I really need the money but I'm afraid I'll act out and get fired anyway.