Literally the title. I just feel so guilty doing things I know will screw over others because of how shitty management is. Like if I don't over exert myself than someone else will have to and it'll stress them out so why not just do it myself? I don't want to be the only one doing the work anymore but I feel so guilty when management looks down on me for my work ethic. If I started a job well, I don't want to disappoint others.
Listen, I'm aware that management doesn't care for me at all and a company is only worried about profits, but I have other coworkers I care about and my direct manager I care for and everyone in the sub seems to contradict themselves between “fuck the company do whatever you can to screw them over” and “the company exploits it's workers constantly and I'm dissatisfied with that.” There's a difference between messing with someone's over time and stealing toilet paper, for example, in which case it's justified to ruin a company from the inside out. But in situations where the manager is just doing their best in the position they maintain because they have repercussions from a different higher up… well I empathize with them. It must be hard to face shareholders and CEOs. I just can't bring myself to act unethical at work even if I support everyone on here who does. I want to be able to do what helps me first, not the company. But it feels so good when they acknowledge what I do that I just want to do more to prove my worth. But I know thats never how they look at it. I know they're not my friends, but I can't stop caring about them like they are.