I don’t feel like I’m an overly complicated person. I don’t want jets, super cars, mansions, or tons of money. All I want is to just spend time with my wife instead of giving so much of my life away to my fucking job. I work 12 hr night shifts and on the days I work I am either sleeping or at work. There is no time to do ANYTHING outside of work.
I see her on the evenings I don’t work and she gets home for an hour or two or for the few minutes before I leave for work as she gets home from her job. We don’t go on dates, we don’t go on vacations or even take vacations away from work and stay home. We can’t afford to. We are young, we don’t make a whole lot.
All I want is the ability to be with her more. I only get to wake up next to her one day a week and it fucking kills me. I’d leave this job but everywhere else around here wouldn’t pay me enough to even pay rent so we are selling our time, our energy and at this point our sanity to make sure we can eat and have a roof over our heads.
Fuck this. when did living mean giving up everything that’s worth living for? What’s the point?