I some what enjoy where I work now but I don't wanna work here anymore.
For context it's a from scratch restaurant and the job isn't bad. It's just the situation I'm in and how I've been treated here that make me wanna move on. I started just over 2 and a half years ago and when my boss hired me he didn't expect me to last 3 months (I know this because he said it to my face numerous times) and he's come to rely on me what feels like too much a late 30 year old should on a fresh 20 year old, but I digress.
I wanna say it all started at a certain point, but it's kinda been the whole time I've worked here. I've seen so much contradictions and hypocriticism just when it comes to me and hardly anyone else.
Example A. I try to ask him if I can leave a little early and he hits me with a “no man left behind we all finish as a team.” Then before I know it he lets everyone else dip early or sit at the bar with him and hangout/ drink while I'm the last guy finishing up.
So I asked about it and he tells me it's because I'm slow and take the longest to clean up. Which it happens sometimes but most of the time it's because I'm getting a last minute order or because I have prep to finish (that he told me to do before I can close my station.) I've tried to improve and so many times I've gotten my entire area closed before everyone else and I'm still last one to finish cleaning and am all by myself.
This has been the case before and after I got “promoted” and when I was promoted (at the time he said my position was closer) things got a little more hypocritical because I had just asked for a raise and instead got put on salary, 40 plus hours a week no overtime, and I only get half an hour after close paid time. If I'm any later it doesn't count to my hours because I'm being “lazy and slow” which again I agreed on but sometimes its out of my hands.
Also that promotion also came with a title of pm manager that I didn't know about till last week. So here I was thinking I'm just the guy that closes and everyone else gets off a bit earlier than me. When apparently it should of been hey come back and help me close the kitchen. Or something I don't know.
There's more to the story but I can't post it all now so I'll wrap it up. I been wanting to quit sense my first year but I haven't yet because I am scared. To put it plane and simple. I'm scared of finding a new place to work that closer to home (I drive 45 min to work) and I'm scared that I'll be treated worse there. I'm tired of it all, I put on a smile and keep pushing but all I get are thank you and apologies when my boss is shit faced.