I wanted to have a job lined up and I found a great one. Great people, great schedule, great pay and benefits. But the fact that I have to do this for the next 40 years and I won't even have a guaranteed retirement or even a safe planet to live on at the end of it…….is really depressing. I feel like it doesn't really mean anything and I'd much rather just do some stupid high paying job and just vibe with a lot of money instead of slowly climbing the ladder like I was taught. Even then, it'll be hard to find the higher paying job with less hours that can give me the same secure life that this job is guaranteeing me. I'm so tired and I wish I could work in the way that is best for me (i.e. not waking up at 7:30) and I wish I could not do 8 hour days and I wish my parents would understand how utterly hopeless everything is now. I'm on antidepressants and those give me enough energy to get through my day but even then, I still have to manage all the other ADHD/autism/anxiety symptoms that I have and somehow do everything for myself in the checks watch 4? Hours I have to myself after work. I know a lot of this is probably because I went from having as much time to myself as I wanted to having absolutely none at all. I'm really privileged and I feel bad for not appreciating what I have but I'm also just exhausted. I can't imagine doing this job or any job really full time for years and years. Am I supposed to feel this unmotivated by work? Some people really enjoy or at least don't mind going to work. I feel like something is wrong with me…….any words of wisdom or advice for the new graduate?