Today I’m having some pretty serious mental struggles, I dropped a trash can and got very angry kinda threw a tiny fit for the first time in god knows how long. I’m 24 and work for a collision center, I’m having some suicidal thoughts, and please don’t tell me to talk to a hotline or doctor, I’m already on lexapro and buspar and can’t be hospitalized, in my area of Georgia, you DO NOT want to be sent to a facility because you will be alone and talked to like you hate yourself and are stupid. I just need to take time off for mental health to just have some time to cry and not feel judged at work, from the way most of the guys here talk, I would be ridiculed privately for being seen crying and I don’t want individual special treatment. I’m almost at the spot where I will get promoted and I think this will ruin it. My boss says my hard work is NOT going unnoticed but I feel like this will immediately set it back to when I was hired and not proved myself yet. To be fair I don’t know if he would understand, but I can’t have a conversation regarding my suicidal thoughts specifically without crying. Which means I’d have to go to the office area and be seen by other workers.