Im honestly exhausted and im starting not to care anymore. I was exhausted in school shamed for being unemployed and now that I have a job im exhausted and stepped on. There is no winning in this world and im tired of being tired and living with my parents and having absolutely nothing to look forward to. I basically have a job mainly to have health insurance for when I turn 26 to have cancer care (MRIs and treatment if it comes back) but honestly I kinda want to just die already because im sick of working. So whats the point? Im working and hating being alive or im not working and I sacrifice my health. I still live with my parents so I guess I wont loose housing but long term its still the case that im fucked if I cant find a way to sell myself, and living in a one bedroom apartment with my parents is getting aweful but I dont feel like I can move out with my job and job insecurity. Ive had four managers since november when I started this job and the latest one seems to think im lazy but im fucking tired.
Im sick of this shit, if I have to work to have healthcare and live and working makes me want to die. Then I shiuld just die shouldnt I?