I worked at a gas station for a few years and last year, I left that job for better pay.
I regretted it. I worked at warehouses, at a Walmart, and I spent my wages treating mental illness symptoms that flared up during that time.
I came back to my old job, but I felt changed for the worse. I wish I can get my happiness back as my job right now is actually decent except the wages. I think I got very jaded by the soul-sucking of my old jobs.
Quitting my work would not work out for me and getting SSI would take over a year to attain. So I am looking at seven plus years of work until I apply for widow's benefits (50 1/2 with documented disability).
Thanks in advance!