Okay so this may be a rant and not sure if it belongs here.
Anyways. Backstory, originally I was placed in a dept where my subgroup was shit. I was literally there for like 3 months, no one wanted to help me nor train me (biotech). So pretty much invisible literally cried every night. Then I got placed in another group to help. Which was great since I got busy. Then I went to my shit hole dept. (I originally wanted to transfer but it wasn’t allowed. Wanted to look for another job, but it was right before the pandemic and everything was chaotic)
Fast forward a year in, things changed, It got better.
Fast forward to now. Unfortunately the project I was on was canceled, I got moved to a different project. New boss. Mind you, everyone likes them but super intimidating.
At first I was very eager to start but then 2 months in, once again another cycle of invisibleness. He forgets to cc me in emails (I have a friend in the same group and she shows me). We have a monthly meeting with everyone on the dept and do this quick “hey I’m so so blah blah – some introduction” 2 – 3 members/ month.
Just yesterday they say “oh everyone has already gone”. I haven’t.
But at the same time I don’t speak up as I don’t like attention and don’t want people in my business.
But damn. Like why the fuck am I so invisible?! I don’t think people do it on purpose or at least hope not.
But shit. This thing over again.
Oh yeah and then I had a friend playfully say “oh shit there’s a ghost / didn’t see you there – meaning me” and I just went on with the joke.
I get it I’m not as smart and usually doing my own thing. But shit. Like wtf.
For those asking, yes I am applying elsewhere but it’s hard out there feeling like this.