So I recently found out I'm autistic, which has been illuminating as to why I have such frequent workplace conflict and get burned out on jobs so often, no matter how well things start off. This time around I'm trying so hard to communicate needs through proper channels, but it's the first place I've worked where my coworkers all seem to be struggling with the same problems. I would find this encouraging, but I keep having meltdowns! I find myself apologizing to my coworkers, but it's starting to feel like every day, and as time goes on and problems continue to go unaddressed, I get more and more easily overstimulated and my reactions get less and less justifiable.
At least my workplace offers an EAP so I can get counseling ASAP for anger management and hopefully a formal diagnosis to bring to HR, but I'm starting to wonder if I'll even last that long.