Hello,
I work a job where I work for a family who doesn't directly pay me, I am paid through an agency. The client I work for is a very kind person and has no ties to any monetary exchange between us. I am struggling with the guilt that comes with the idea that when I don't go to work I am hurting the client or the family, both of whom are not really my employers, but also sort of are. It very much feels like the kind of job where its not viewed as a job by everyone, and that can be dangerous in its own way. I feel tremendous guilt if I call in and don't go today, but I know I really want/need a day off. I just don't want my day off to be ruined by the guilt of not going. I am so bad at confrontation like this and telling people no, it's one of the things I struggle most with in the workplace. Can someone please help me see this in any kind of light that might empower me to care about my life more than a job?