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Can’t I just be happy?

So a little bit about me. I have adhd, depression, and my therapist thinks I’m slightly autistic. Because of this. I struggle with jobs because my brain follows the Dopamine and if I start to hate the job I can no longer work their. It’s always been a huge struggle but after covid I stopped really “facing” (being able to act like a normal person and coming off as being polite and nice and being really good at customer service.) Well I’ve been working in customer service since I was 15 and it slowly became something I cannot handle mentally anymore. Well recently I started working at a doggy day care as a shift worker and trainer. I don’t make a lot. But I get to work with dogs all day and my human contact besides the people I work with is minimal so I’m extremely happy with it. My…


So a little bit about me. I have adhd, depression, and my therapist thinks I’m slightly autistic. Because of this. I struggle with jobs because my brain follows the Dopamine and if I start to hate the job I can no longer work their. It’s always been a huge struggle but after covid I stopped really “facing” (being able to act like a normal person and coming off as being polite and nice and being really good at customer service.) Well I’ve been working in customer service since I was 15 and it slowly became something I cannot handle mentally anymore. Well recently I started working at a doggy day care as a shift worker and trainer. I don’t make a lot. But I get to work with dogs all day and my human contact besides the people I work with is minimal so I’m extremely happy with it. My husband makes enough money to pay for all of our bills so my income is just extra to make sure we are comfortable. Well my mother has made comments about the lack of money and such. So has my dad. Well my brother has decided to get in on this. He goes “why don’t you just work at Mercedes’ you can make good money by working the line” at this point I’m extremely frustrated and basically screamed “because I can’t. I cannot work a job that I feel no joy in because it fucks me up mentally and makes it where I no longer want to be alive. So I’m not going to work a job just because I can make a lot of money. I’m going to work one that brings me job and makes me want to wake up in the morning. And it’s no one else’s business what I do. So can you all just drop it??” I know it was a bit harsh but this has been going on for years. Why can they just let me be happy? Why can’t they just leave me alone?!??

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