I am trying my best to not lose my mind. Trying to be a good leader to my team members who deserve the very best boss I can be. In the process, I am noticing how my peers and the company head are human versions of red flags. I get emails outside of work hours. There is no effin structure. Tiniest things are escalated as if the world is crashing down.
I swear I am trying.
People take pride in working 24×7 AND the weekends. Not sure how they haven't discovered the 'schedule send' option on their email system.
I am so disappointed. I had so many hopes for this job and I am working so hard. I want to do well. I really want to succeed.
But tonight, I am crying myself to sleep because I am tired and I just can't take it anymore.
Tomorrow I will smile and be my confident self again. I will try again.