Family-owned. I did ask a week before because it’s a last minute wedding (she got pregnant), but I would not have gotten it off anyway as no one can ask for their regularly scheduled shifts off unless someone can cover them if it’s on an important date/ holiday. Friend’s wedding is on the same day as a huge event here in this teeny tiny town I live in, the restaurant will be swarmed. Asked everyone if they could cover, no one wanted to or was able to. So my manager scheduled me for me regular Saturday shift anyway. Of course I’ve considered just not going to work. But I would be fired. This town is teeny tiny, job prospects are low, I could not find another one that pays as well (entirely because of tips), or enough for me to survive if I were to choose to not go to work that day. Being fired from this job would leave me without being able to pay rent this month (and probably the months that will follow), as well as car insurance and food, as I depend on the tips I get the same day I work and my rent is due the weekend I would come back to work. But this is my best friend’s wedding. I can’t miss it under any circumstance. Please, I need advice about what I can do beyond “just go to the wedding”. If there’s something I could do that I haven’t thought of, I would really appreciate being told it as being fired from this job would leave me homeless and unable to pay my bills.
I am going insane. I’ve been trying to survive mentally for three years now and the past weeks have been the darkest hell I’ve ever been in, I have no desire to live and had told myself I had to stay alive at least to see my best friend get married, and my cousin get married (November). I just can’t fucking do this anymore. Any suggestions, advice please.