Hi guys,
Its my 4th month at my new job. And this is the first time im doing an office job related to my field. Before applying the job, I knew what the department is doing was not my interest and actually in university I hated the class related to it. But I accepted the job bc I need money and a career.
However, I have never felt so bad before in my life. I have never felt like I am in a cage, this unhappy and this anxious. Think yourself that you are anxious everyday every minute. Your heart beats fast, you feel like you are going to lose your mind, you want to die, your chest in in pain and you cannot breathe. I don’t know how my mental health became this messed up. I saw a professional and started taking an antidepressant. Also I’m seeing a psychologist.
I was always an anxious person and had panic attacks. But I’ve never felt this bad in my life. Do you think its because of work or its just a coincidence?
People in our department are quite, and I dont have much to do at work. I get bored so much. Also I work in a skyscraper, there is nothing fun, no air, only traffic and lots of people everywhere.
For my social life, I still live with my parents due to money issues. I am an introvert and not a social person. But i want to be social and do different things. I want to be free and want to discover. Doing different things.
Should I just quit my job for the sake of mental health? Everyone tells me not to bc they say if i become unemployed things will be worse. What would you suggest me?
TDLR; started my first office job (my 4th month). I always had anxiety and sometimes panic attacks. But I never felt in my life this unhappy and in dark. Imagine that you are anxious everyday every minute that you cannot breathe or even move. 5 days at an office in a skyscraper and around the place there is only traffic and lots of people. Im an introverted person and not social.