I don’t even mind my job. It’s part-time at a pub, which yeah sucks, but as far as part-time jobs go, it’s not the worst. The people aren’t horrible, and it’s easy enough. Even still, I find that every day before my shift, I get so intensely depressed. I already have mental health issues, so it just makes me worse and basically unable to do anything else except dread going in, or just wanting to die because I have to go in. I’m in school at the same time and the burnout is real because I use up all my energy just trying to hype myself into going to work or getting through my shift. Sometimes I have to go in drunk just so I’m not miserable the entire time.
Idk how I’m ever going to function in ‘real life’, after uni. The thought of working anywhere for more than a year is an actual nightmare. I just feel a lot of the time like I wasn’t made for this world, because everything about functioning in it makes me sick.
I don’t know if this is even the right place to post this, but I was wondering if anyone else felt the same.