I went to law school and most of the jobs in the legal field are a nightmare. One of my dreams was to be a music teacher and so I almost signed up for the bachelor and then I get this crippling anxiety, thinking “Trachers were the first people to get burnout”, “The kids will try to make my life a living hell”.
Or I look into giving freelance legal advice and people say “why not, that”s a great Idea”. Then i am reminder how difficult it is to find clients and I already see worst case scenarios of getting one star Google reviews because the law is so complex these days and I don't know how to do it on my own.
So i look onto something else and it goes like this. I'm a woman and I'd like to do chores. I mail the course leader and they respond: “You also have to move furniture”. So i think, welp, they really try everything to exclude women. “What if I don't find a job”? “what if I can't pay the taxes”?
Any time I have the least bit of ambition I deel like everything is impossible. I feel like the only jobs out there are either the top jobs for sociopaths that are super difficult, that or being a cleaning lady of clean out barns and shit.
I'm thinking of helping at a pet shelter. Looked into starting my own pet shelter but of course my parents are instantly like “computer says no”. It's like I am not allowed to do anything in life that gives me drive.
Anyone else feel like this? And so you just don't want to do anything?