Howdy y’all! I work for a commercial hog farm. I was transferred last month, with no warning, to a farm an hour away from my home. Between the demon manager, the work, and the drive, I’ve had a complete relapse in my mental health.
Nervous tics I had as a toddler are coming back, I black out on the highway sometimes, running off the shoulder, and all I can think about is sleep, both because I am exhausted and because I can pretty well lucid dream, so I can choose to be somewhere else when I’m dreaming. I want to quit so bad, but I can’t do that to the pigs I oversee.
The management at that farm is horrific, and I am the only person in the barn taking proactive care of the girls.
I want to report to the production manager, who I know to be a good man, but I want to be at a different farm when I do so, because my current manager would make my life hell. I’m so torn. I love what I do, but I can’t stand the people over me, and I can’t sustain myself on no sleep and no motivation. I feel so responsible for the animals as well, and would hate to abandon them. What would y’all do in my shoes?