I'm a 22 year old guy, uni student (UK) . I'm on placement for a year as an IT Technician within a bank
I've been here just over 3 months.
A lot of things that I do here are very new to me. And I'm getting used to things now.
I am dealing with the effects of PTSD and anxiety. But these are getting better for now and I'm still working on them.
The guy who I mainly work with/who trains me is 44. He is the typical nerdy tech IT guy you'd see. He's kind of an awkward guy.
But I noticed over the past while he's been taking his anger out on me and being passive aggressive. Which on the outside I remain calm and collected, but inside I just wanna crack it and say something to him. But I can't really as I need the money. Technically only need to be here another 6 months
People say I look assertive and serious and stuff. But when you talk to me you'll realise I'm not lol. I'm just quiet but learning to take no shit
Today, for example, he asked what the pass code was for an iPhone I allegedly set up back in May for someone when I started. I gave him the pass code I used and it didn't work. He just stared at me when I asked if that was the one that didn't work. For literally 5 seconds straight. Like trying to be intimidating, but he's literally the last intimidating looking guy I've ever seen
The manager was putting stuff in the group chat for something for me to do. A list of computers I have to update. However, I was installing software that the manager said, but I didn't see the comment the guy said about him doing something or rebuilding the PC. And he asked what I was doing. Gave me a look and said 'for fucks sake' while facepalming. The other two employers laughed as well. Which further angered me, I still remained calm
Funny enough, when it was just us two working while everyone was off on holiday. He didn't say shit. When another employee came back from holiday. He started getting at me. Saying something dumb like 'what do you have to do? ' (this was at 9.10am) I said nothing as of yet. I have done everything according to my notes as of today. And he said 'well if you have nothing to do tell me' in a condescending tone.
While subsequently giving me nothing to do. Because THERE IS NOTHING to do at that moment. It's quite dead most days unless people are having issues.
Today, I walked into him outside after work as he had to get a different bus, he apologised for his behavior, and said it was the managers fault because he was giving him so much to do.
But in my head I was thinking can't you learn to not take it out on others. Especially me, a guy with barely 3 months experience. He has been working here since I've been born (22 years)
There has been numerous occasions where this has happened, and more so lately. And I feel uneasy and crap at times. Like on edge.
Weirdly it reminds me of how my parents were nice one minute, then angry, then nice again. Kind of gives me those vibes and feelings. Felt a bit panicky. But didn't show it.
Overall. I don't want to work here after the year has done. It's a dead job which will most likely be replaced by automation in 10 years. I'm just here to help out and for the money. I'm a friendly easygoing person who's here to learn also, but idc about what people think or the business
Am I overreacting? Has anyone else been in a similar situation?