I have been working at this company for a year now and the pay has been really bad. I had debts for the first 8 months but now I'm able to manage only because I cut down my investments from 20% of my salary to 10%.
I do not have liquid or cash savings. After paying my bills, I barely have any money left.
From the time I wake up to well after midnight, I'm working. I've stopped exercising during the weekdays because my work eats up into my evening when I normally worked out. I sleep so late that I barely get 6 hours of sleep every night. So working out in the morning is not very viable.
All this, I could live with. Our appraisals are at the end of the calendar year so I'd been telling myself that I'd find a new job by March if the appraisals don't go well.
But now that I know what my colleague gets paid, I don't want to stay here. I have more experience than her. As happy as I am for her, I just feel very stupid for giving so much to a company that underpays me so much.
I loved my job but there's been a shift in the culture that's not sitting very well with me. Coupled with this revelation, I feel destroyed.
I was shifted to a different department instead of the one I applied for and now my new skills are too niche to get me better jobs. I'll try switching to analogous fields maybe.
The only problem is that I lack vision. I have a cross-functional role at the intersection of two major industries. And because of this company, my trajectory has changed so significantly that it is miles away from my past goals. So I want to set new goals.
I need to find a new mentor ASAP because all my other mentors do not work in this field.
I have so much work to do today but I don't think I feel very optimistic about it.
To what end am I wasting my precious time if they only value it at nearly half of my peers'?
The worst part is that I didn't negotiate well enough for this job because my old boss was so shitty that their offer was half of what this current company offers.
They really fucked me over.
Since I didn't want the bad rep of quitting my job 6 months after joining the current company, I PUT ASIDE my masters plans.
I was so dumb.