Hi all,
So this is more of a personal struggle post.
Lost my old job a couple years ago due to budget cuts, so I took a job an hour away out of desperation and the overwhelming urge to not starve to death. The goal was to get the job, buy a house, and boom. Good to go.
I'm now coming up on 3 years of commuting one hour each way, on top of a minimum of 8 hours per day work (so 10 hour days with 8 hour pay at only O.K. wages of $20 hour).
I just cannot find anything jobs closer to home that is A. Not miserable and B. Pays decent.
The housing near where I now work has exploded with horrible, run down tiny houses in drive by territory costing well over 200K, and anything considered livable bieng closer to 300k even for trailers in tiny lots. I literally cannot afford to live closer to work and they're not willing or able (state job) to pay anything better.
I am in IT, I have nearly 10 years of experience there, a degree in Biology, a Minor in Education, and I still cannot find anything.
I am so burnt out and just desperately under-rested at this point. I don't know if I'm doing something wrong, if I'm just unmarketable, or maybe it's just my area that I live in but I'm feeling like I'll be trapped in this forever. The worst part is I don't even feel like my current job is that stable, which adds more stress.
2 hours of commuting daily is really soul sucking if you've never done it, and on top of this I'm also caring for my GF who is recovering from multiple surgeries, who can't get up to cook, clean or do much of anything really.
*screaming inside but working hard outside*
I'm not sure what the point of this post is but I needed to get it out there. Is this normal?