Ive been working since i was 14, currently 21 and holy hell am i so done with this shit. When i was in high-school i was told about how great and awesome the trades were and how it was the best thing even better then college. Well I decided why not since the job i worked for 6 years was paying me jack shit; It was a horrible mistake. Through the past 2-3 years of working carpentry both commercial and residential it has completely killed my passion for anything, through that i was also diagnosed with an anxiety disorder and chronic depression. My body has been abused and my mind has been mentally exhausted from working my heart out but nothing ever being good enough. I’ve tried too go back too school different jobs but no one ever bothers too call back, and life for some reason decides it wants too kick me in the balls every fucking step of the way. From racist assholes who shit on you for not knowing as much as they do to bosses who just lie and make excuses too blame you, only too go and be micromanaged too hell and nothing ever being good enough even if you put your best effort in. Im so done with this shit and the funny thing is even if stay and bust my ass i still get paid a poverty wage so i cant even afford rent lol. I will say there have been things that have kept me going; i took up a coaching position for my old highschool’s wrestling team and it has been a blessing. Im also going too the gym again after years of depression breaking me down, so there is progress, but i need to get out of the trades, get out if working my life away that wont even let me live decently on my own, and it sucks, all i do is never good enough and just trying too be happy is a task harder then it should. I hate work and i hate life, if it wasn’t for my sheer determination too be the best wrestling coach I’d probably be dead by now. And lastly too the bullies and asswipes thats decided it would be funny too ruin a little kids dreams just by making him an outcast i hope y’all are fucking happy, you fucking cunts.