I acknowledge the essence of work, because it's hard to live without any source of income, but it's even harder to just want to survive and people thinking I should be doing more to put myself out there.
Can't I just work to live well enough? Why do I have to make being successful in a career the essence of my whole life?
People imposing this rat race on me is making me feel miserable, not doing enough, not enough in every aspect, and making me doubt my skills and abilities.
The older I get, the more this success-oriented idea is being forced on me, and I'm sick of it pulling me down to depressive episodes, where I'm stuck in a loop of thinking other people are better than me because they have titles.