I had 9 jobs in 4 years due to low esteem, illness, bad relationships but mostly because of the toxic jobs themselves. Saw horror at white colar jobs that left me suicidal every night on the couch.
Had to move back home with my parents. Suffering from major depression and soon I need special guidance to find a job. Kinda like for a handicapped person. My last job was already part time cause I couldn't handle more and so unemployment is only € 750 a month. I have a degree that could earn me € 4000 net but I don't care. It's sad. But all these toxic inhumane jobs leech the energy out of me. Horrible people, long hours, screentime, nerve wrecking bureacracy and nasty bosses…
Most of my days I now spend trying to feel something when going outside. Everything is exhausting but I manage to pick a flower or write something. I try to eat well and be gentle to myself. I don't feel guilt or shame, just a lot of sadness and disappointment with the world. My dreams were crushed fast and I accepted it happens to the best of us, also thanks to this sub. I realise all jobs are bad and that I should never give it any importance. There's always a job for anyone who wants to work. The economy is on our side. Meanwhile I sabotage the system everywhere I can. Became a frugal hedonist. Can totally recommend the book The Art of Frugal Hedonism cause we need every penny we got as millenials.
Since covid (2020), past 3 years I think I have worked about 50 days total. I just can't stand it. I hope that the unemployment guidance for handicapped people can help me find a job where they don't hate you for not being well. I'm curious.
Never overwork for any job. Never tell any coworker about your private life. Take all your sick leave, vacation, work part time. Join a union. Save all your money and invest with it safely. Buy gold. Don't buy stuff. Screw corporatism. Say no to chains. Laugh at ceos. Laugh at their virtue signalling while they destroy the world. Read anti work books. Spread the message.