Hard seeing that in my first job I get to be with people who are very gossipy and like to make a lot of jokes that are smths shitty. Like for example last week they were telling me how I should dress and look, saying that I should wear make up, wear heels, wear a dress, go to gym etc.. that they would do a make over (using me as a experiment doll for two days), I said I didn't want to use the heels but they keep insisting until bc of so much pressure I started to cry… (I know that I shouldn't cry but I guess all the anxiety made me feel bad, Is not the first time they say or do smth that makes me usept but it was the first time that I thought it was to much bc they weren't listening and thought it was cute to make comments about my appearance) then today one said that the cook won't come today so we won't have a lunch… I just brought one food to eat as a breakfast but I didn't eat it bc I was wondering “what if is true and the cook doesn't come” ( I thought it couldn't be true bc they have done this to me plenty on times in two months already… they say smth with a serious tone and then blame me for believing them when they were never sarcastic and I asked them many times if it was true until they said that it wasn't, one day they even stole my food and lie about it instead of telling me that if I could share it with them…) and the cook came and now I'm like a clown and hungry for believing their lies I mean “jokes” again..
Is so frustrating bc it seems I can't even trust them for anything and they are my supervisors, I'm the youngest one and I think they see me as a naive person (since also happens I'm quite anxious, shy and can't understand their double meaning smths), tbh they aren't like this just to me, they are like that with everyone is just that while they bring witty mean comments back, I don't… bc that is not my personality (making crude jokes) and I dislike ppl disrespecting me when i treat them polite and respect.
I'm thinking of leaving but idk I wonder if this a thing that I need to deal with everywhere or I can find a workplace that have a non toxic environment (have only been in this job for 2 months and 3 weeks).