I started working in childcare a month ago and I am having a really hard time. There are so many teachers in my family who love it but I never wanted to be one myself. I am just trying to gain experience to go into another job right now but I don’t think I can stick it out. I am not a stern person at all and the kids in my class do not listen to me, every time its nap time I go into complete panic mode because I know that there will be 4/5 kids jumping on their beds, ripping stuff off of shelves and walls, and just generally running around and not listening to me. Its really overwhelming all the time and I understand why the turnover rate is so ridiculously high. Almost every day I am thinking about how I can make myself sick or injured so I don’t have to do this anymore. And the shitty part is I actually really like kids but being their teacher is really just not the right role for me. I am planning to work at getting my OTA license, but need to be making at least 1k a month for rent while doing it. I am trying to get out of this job so hard, I interviewed somewhere else last week but I don’t think I got it. Does anyone have any recommendations for jobs that I could do that would pay the bills but not make me so miserable? I am really creative and love making art like painting and small sculptures and have considered making children’s online books or narrate for kids books but I have no idea where to start. Any words of encouragement or advice to get me through another week would be greatly appreciated.