I'm about to quit this part-time job that I landed because I haven't been able to function through the feelings of inadequacy. I'm basically agoraphobic, with severe social anxiety and constant suicidal thoughts. Panic attacks daily. I'm thinking of trying to kill myself again soon, because I actually can't function as an adult in society. I went to college, but my English degree is useless.
I was doing pet sitting and dog walking for a while, along with grocery and food deliveries. That felt comfortable to me and I was thinking of starting my own pet care business. Then, my boyfriend and I moved six hours away and I was trying to find work. I ended up landing pet care gigs here and there, but nothing consistent. My boyfriend has the money and has said that he's happy to support me while I get mental help and truly work on myself. I love volunteering.
I just got this job as a laundry attendant at a day spa, and I'm realizing it's not for me. Everyone else already helps with the laundry, so my position is basically useless and it's not fulfilling at all. I want to work to be able to provide additional income for us, but I'm unable to sleep, eat, and I'm throwing up constantly.
I would absolutely love to work remotely, but I haven't been able to find anything legitimate. I'm about to start drafting an email quitting now since I just can't take this anymore. I know this makes me sound really lazy and entitled. I've tried my best. I'm about to end it all. I'm desperate for a way out. Please be kind.